The insanity begins.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Waaahhh~
Finally got time and energy to come online lerx...
This blog die le~
Muz revive!!!
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Random thought of the day:
Some people can really just be a bi-yatch. = .= and blazers are really comfy!
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Sighx... really, children nowadays got no respect for their elders.
I mean, they scream, yell, scold people in public without shame.
What's worse is that they do the same thing to their parents too!
Totally rude and un-cute.
What brought about this thinking was actually due to the fact that i witnessed such a thing on sunday...
Well, I went BPP at around 8+ on that day to get my plastic dividers(file was to be handed up on the next day... x.X),
And when i got everything and was waiting for the really late bus,
I saw this really cute 4-5 year old boy and his mom.(he was really, really cute.)
But then, he started to talk. Or rather, he started to bitch.
He kept saying things like 'Why the bus so long!', 'The bus driver very stupid!', in his childish high-pitched voice of his.
And he wasn't just loud.
He was very LOUD.
I mean, people in the bus stop was staring at him and his mom(including me),
And his mom noticed.
So, she told him to tone down his voice, coz it's 'shameful for people to stare at us'.
Guess what the little brat replied?
'Why should i be shameful? It's the bus driver's fault! And they are rude for staring at us! What do i have to be quiet when its not my fault?'
Frankly, the bus really din come for the next 10 mins(out of which 9 and a half was spent listening to the brat bitch),
Which is pretty normal, considering the time of the day.
And the brat said this(6mins into the waiting)
'Go, la! The bus will never come!'
The mom said,
'Let's wait a bit more.'
And the little brat said,
'You stupid! The bus will never come!'
And i was like...
Can i slap the damn brat?Seriously.
Children these days really dun respect their elders enough.
Not to mean that we are saints, but we are definitely better then them(most of us at least).
And my sister is a mild little brat.
She's not that bad actually, but sometimes,
She really ignores all of us(anyone older then her) when we talk to her at times...
Sighx. And scolding really doesn't work, coz she overrides my demands anyway...
(I dislike hitting kids. Unless they're really really horrible.)
I hope that the adults(the ones that deserve it at least) get the respect that they are due, from us, the younger generation.
After all, most of them, have really done a lot for us, and since we are unable to do much for them, the least we could do is respect and love them right?
Not scold or stare down them. Just smile...
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Random quote of the day:
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracle, you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
-Prince of Egypt
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Next issue to my heart:
Really, i don't like the way some people do things.
Especially after i read 尤今老师's 小说选
There was this 篇章 inside, which is titled 飞翔的企鹅 and another one titled 监护人。
This book was actually a book for the competition, 《读吧，新加坡》by the singapore government.
This competition wanted us to understand the stories, feelings, thought processes and the underlying message behind each short story, and now, i have only read 2.
The first one is actually a story about a boy, who was suppressed by his super-protective mother.
His father had died of cancer when he was young, and this had led to his mom, having to take upon her shoulders the burden of 养家。 As such, his mother saw him as hope, hope for him to lead a better life in the future. She had extremely high hopes for him, and she did not dare to let him out of her control, for fear that he would go on the wrong path.
However, he felt very suppressed and had no freedom, and he coulnd't understand why his mother was so strict in what he could, and could not do. He felt hurt and really angry when his mother would not believe him no matter what, and had to humiliate him all the time in front of his classmates, and his peers. In the end, he committed suicide by jumping.
After reading the story, i felt that both the mother and the son were wrong. But i feel that the son was more to blame for his actions, while his mother was to be blamed for holding too tightly.
On one hand, the son should have realised that what his mother was doing was actually good for him, and that her intentions were good, instead of viewing it as pointless nagging. It is afterall, the way that she chose to show her care and concern to her child. He shouldn't have made the rash decision to commit suicide, despite what his mother did. He obviously never realised how people around him would be affected, but only thought about his freedom in the way of death. He should have known, and probably did, that his mother did love him, in her own way, which is obvious from the last scene, where she was depicted to have put his favourite foods on his funeral altar.
On the other hand, the mother shouldn't have been so hard on her son, neither should she have held him so tightly. She may not have known how to communicate to her son, but at least she should have trusted her son not to do things that were bad for himself. Frankly, even though her way of bringing up her son is often seen in Singapore, i feel that she should have invested enough trust in her son, and not overeact to things. She should have also listened to her son.
But in some way, i can understand her reasons for such over-protectiveness. Her son, is afterall, the only thing left to her after the death of her husband. It is only natural, that she hold on tighter to him. I once read this in a fanfiction.
"Do you know that sometimes when you feel like you're going under, you'd hold on tightly to a rock, to keep youself afloat? Aizen was Hinamori's rock. He was the one keeping her afloat. That's why she's afraid to let go, Taichou. She's afraid of drowning."
"But you didn't fall apart like Hinamori did."
"Because Gin never hid from me. I'd always known that he'd leave, someday. That's why i was his rock. I was there to hold him."
However, things don't always go the ideal way. Things go out of our control and sometimes, all we can do is ask ourselves, why?
Only a few days ago, a 11yr old committed suicide out of school stress. Did he ever think about his peers, his parents? Did he ever think about how his leaving would cause emotional hurt to those he holds dearly to heart? Was he ever aware that those same people would have been there to help, if he'd asked? I wonder, what was it that he saw, when he jumped? Did he see his dear ones crying for him? Or was he seeing wings? Wings that would take him away?
Not to say i never thought of commiting suicide before. I did. Once in a lifetime, long long ago.
I thought that if i died, i wouldn't be hearing them talk about me anymore. I wouldn't have to force myself to fit in a world that seemingly had no place for me anymore. I couldn't see my parents' love and concern for me then. It was hate, and anger. Death had seemed the most attractive option then. I would have, if not for a stupid oath that i had made, and my pride would not allow me to break it. I promised my mother, that i'd never, ever commit suicide.
My suicidal thoughts turned into mild depression, and i kept away from my classmates in general, hiding into the computer lab to gain a little bit of peace that i couldn't seem to get in real life. I lost myself in the virtual world, finding comfort where there shouldn't be any. I relied in my virtual world persona to tide me through the year, and finally, after fights and tears and pain, i got myself a place in WSSS. And the rest of the story, you all know. =)
It's really not easy to keep your sense in situations like this, coz our emotions would tend to overwhelm us.
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Random quote:
What's more important then cookies? Cookies!
-Yukiko-kami.
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Hmm, i still got's lots to say, but have to go~
fallenIN
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