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TALOS HAS TAKEN OVER! o.o Opps.
This blog has been reclaimed by JASMINE since 9 APR 09.

TALOS STALKED YA!


4B'starfishes
Liing
Ronnie
Jonathan
Kelvin
Kunda
BECCA!
Razak
Ashok
Azlin
LI Bing
Li Min
Sulastri
Zayar


MY LOVES XD
TSUKI!!!
LOTGD
WEILI
dudu~
HK-DiiNO!



Food for thought
And maybe a little bit of hissy fit
The last psychiatrist

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Amazing fella who 'taught me' movable script! `designer_e*lame

TAG, DAMNED YOU, TAG!

JASMINE/YUKI-KO

A proud 4B'ian in heart, mind and soul~
Diagnosed with insanity, split personality since 24 Jan 91.
Game, anime, manga, fanfic lover.
Ships YAOI, BL, SHOUNEN-AI in general.

Draws, eats, sleeps, shits, sprouts nonsense, reads.
Sings(?), acts(?), dreams, being a general fucktard.

Wants to open a:
+ Coscafe
+ Orphanage

Wants to be a:
+ Counselling Psychologist
+ Fu Tai Tai(br> + Wife/Mother/Grandmother

Wants to do:
+ Take over the world
+ Experience what it feels like to be a guy for a day
+ Engage in YAOI!!!
+ Get married
+ Have at least 5 kids.
+ Be a goddess XD
+ slimming!
+ Cosplay

Things that she wants to see before she dies:
+ World Peace
+ Reduced Poverty
+ Her kids

Places to see before she dies:
+ Germany
+ Egypt
+ China(historical sites)
+ Italy
+ Russia
+ Japan
+ Thailand
+ Ireland
+ France
+ Museum of Sex XD
+ Benaki Museum(Greece)

Places to see after she dies:
+ Babylon
+ Egpyt
+ Heaven

Questions to ask the GOD(s)/GODDESS(es) in charge after she dies:
+ Who made the world?
+ Who made the pyramids?
+ Are there really life in space?
+ What do they do?
+ Can she have cookies in the afterlife?
+ Can she go and create her own puesdo-world?
+ Can they fall in love with mortals?
+ Are the myths real?
+ Are there really parallel worlds?
+ Do we really create new worlds by just thinking about them?
+ Is the dreamscape a reality, or reality the dreamscape?
+ Which came first, the chicken or the egg?
+ Can someone take her to see the history of the world in its entire-ty, in its exact time?
+ Who was she in her past/pastpast/pastpastpast (etc) life?
+ Why is there a prostate gland in a guy's ass if homo-sex is frowned upon?


TALOS GRYFALCRON

Who am I? Stupid question. Who are you?
Frankly if you want to know, pansy named me Hatsubame Matsurika.
Fuckin' tongue twister, I know.
Kratos would've been cool, 'cept some creature who called himself 'God of War' took it already.
So damn. I've got a female name.

Even though I'm a fuckin' MALE.

But call me Talos anyway.
I'm a fuckin' demon, unfortunately, trapped within a pansy ass mortal, who insists that i do not scar people IRL.
What? You don't like it? THEN FUCKIN' LEAVE ALREADY!
Tch...

About me?
Are you kidding mortal?
There is nothing nice at all to know about me.
I kill pink bunnies and eat them for breakfast.
But, nooooooooooooooooo, my pansy host, decides that bunnies are cute, and should not be eaten.

Who is the pansy?
Tch, Jasmine of course!
18 years of age soon, and she still hasn't grown ANY backbone yet!
Oh the horror!
And I'll let you in on a secret...
She is actually pretty evil on the inside.
Don't tell her i told you.

That's why I choose her.
The potential for evilness.
But like i said, she's too much a pansy and self-conscientious to do anything.

Anyway, a warning for you.(She threatened me to tell you.)
I'm rabid, I'm psycho and I'm not nice.
I'll bite anyone i want, and NOBODY can stop me!
Scratch that. Jasmine can.

Tch, self-introduction done.
Can i get on to my fuckin' bashing now?!

The insanity begins.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Just because of this, I'm going to watch GS and GSD all over again.

Coz wiki sucks at explaining Gundam's political struggles and its words span thousands~

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Random quote of the day:

Athrun Zala: [to Shinn Asuka] Everyone who has cried over being powerless feels that way, I think. But, from the moment you take that power into your hand, you'll become the person who will make others cry. Don't you ever forget that.

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fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 7:10 AM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Meaningful Quote:

"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them -- words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst I think. When the secret stays locked within not for a want of a teller but for an ear." - Stephen King

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 8:02 AM

Thought of the day:
If you didn't want any opinions, you shouldn't have asked for any.

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Highlight of the day:
龙须糖，糖聪薄饼, kueh tutu and fried jackfruit fritter is very, VERY nice!!!
Yum!

Die liaox, eat too much sugar~

Plus, i saw some girls wearing Kimono...
So pretty!
I wan wear too!

=3
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LOLx, got liing to scan some of my art~

Finally will be able to post some up here~
Please comment truthfully kx!

I want to get better at it~
Heex~
My dream is to be like the taiwan and korean artist,
Can publish a graphic/novel of my own~

Lalala~

Dreamer~

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*doesn't think she's got anything constructive today~ her brain is too dead to write a half tragedy for Yuki & Ko~

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Quote of the day:
"And it was then I realized that I was only a part of the past, so there was nothing I could do but go. Except I didn't. I couldn't. " - The Wonder Years

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 7:41 AM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Had a really normal day at school today.

Didn't really feel like talking much throughout the whole day.
Preferred to let the conversation go on without me so i can just listen.

Tomorrow going to interview the teacher tomorrow,
So actually quite 期待的。

Coz never interview anyone before...

x3

This week's schedule very packed,
Wednesday got briefing for SPLAT concert,
Thursday got Austrailian Math Competition,
Friday got SINDA
Saturday got SPLAT concert
Sunday got PioneerHeartbeat@VivoCity

LOL, so busy right?

x3

Actually quite fun, but gotta study soon,
Or else promos fail again then die le~

After september have a lot of time to play~
But now, Muz study SPA!!

ARRRGGG...
Crystalisation, filter, recrystallisation, filter, dry, repeat!

= .=;;;

So xianx!!!
And chem got so much things to remember, math got so many variation~

=P

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Breaking NEWS!

This is Haneki Bouru reporting live from the National Hospital!

Yukiko-kami has finally awakened after 5 days of anxious anticipation! Her charge, currently still without a name, is also healthy and well!

Yukiko-kami woke up this morning, at 5.34am DA time in the VIP ward today, much to the surprise and joy to the nurses and Kina, who have been by her side since her return. A tearful reunion occured in the late morning, when Yukiko-kami was released back home.

"Its wonderful to know that I'm still missed by people in this world," she said, when interviewed. "It's nice that not matter where i am, or what I do, my people miss me, and love me."

When questioned about her adventures in the other world, she was surprisingly closed-lipped.

"I would reveal it when the time is right, but the time is not now." She was quoted to have said. "DA is facing a bigger threat then it has seen in years. One that could, and would, wipe us all from the plane of existence. Right now, all that i would have you all know is that, the future would be a rough ride. Should this be a losing battle, I would move all of you, including my children, to a separate plane of existence, beyond their reach. You would all be safe, I'll make sure of that."

What Yukiko-kami really meant, we've yet to know, however, but time would surely tell.

Meanwhile, the welcome home party would be held at JUn-JUn stadium on CANDY DAY, which is on the 26 November. Preparations have already begun, and tickets would be sold for a tour in DA headquaters on that day, including a limited pass tp enter Yukiko-kami's private quaters, and have dinner with her and her closest retainers and friends!

Be sure to turn up, and this is Haneki Bouru.

Watch out for the latest news on DA.dreamingoftstars.com


fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 7:56 AM

"Nothing can they alter; there's nothing to decide. No escape - no change of heart - no place to hide. You are all I'll ever want, but this I am denied. Sometimes in my darkest thoughts I wish I'd never learned what it is to be in love and have that love returned."

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Random quote of the day:
"It's like coming home and finally having someone there waiting for you, you know?"

~Naruto, from [Welcome Home] on fanfiction.net

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Read [Welcome home], today.

All about trust between friends, lovers.
About trust between the 2 orphans, Sasuke and Naruto.

About what they went through to get where they are today.
About how they cared, even when everything and everybody else came between them,
To stop them.

Even when they didn't understand their feelings,
They cared.
With their heart.

A very good read, even if you don't like BL.
Coz the author's really amazing in writing.

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Mood of the day:
Contemplative.

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Feelings of the day:
I realised that although i really enjoy my alone time,
I really miss the times i would banter and bicker with Dino.

I miss her a lot,
And i've never been able to talk to her much after we'd gone our separate ways.
She's always with her BF,
Or just simply, busy.

I miss waking up in the morning and looking forward to school too.
I feel no attachment to PJC.
I miss the class, its antics and the teachers.
And the non-teaching staff too.

I miss waking up in the morning,
Knowing that today is another day which i can spend with you in school.
I miss going to school super early,
So that i can spend some time alone with you.

I miss the breakfast times,
And the once in a while dinners.

I even miss doing homework for you.

I mean it.

I miss every single thing about you,
Yet, i can't say what i miss about you most.

Why do you keep asking me what attracts me to you?
I really don't know...
I've asked myself that many a times,
But i've never ever gotten an answer.

I once thought I had a chance.
You gave me so much hope.
The things you did for me,
I thought that it was special.

It is, to some extent.

You said so at least.

Why is it that you'd fall in love with everyone around me,
And not with me?

Why?

Is it so hard?
Or have you seen what I'm really like.

Do you hate the real me?

You asked to see it.

I showed it to you.

Do you dislike it?
This true personality of mine?

Clingy, paranoid, selfish?
Do you dislike these things about me?

I still want to know all about you,
Even when you're so far away.
Even when it's not my business to know.

I still worry about you,
Especially when i heard you fought.

I still wish,
Even though its clear we could only be friends.

Why?
Is there anything i can do to get you to notice me as something more then a friend?

Wait.

Don't answer.

I already know.

You'd say no right?

You once told me that you liked girls with long hair, sweet and not overweight.

I tried to be the first, pretend to be the second...
But the last one was out of reach.
To me at least.

Was that what which turned you off?
I tried keeping my hair long several times last year.
And the year before.

But i couldn't stand it, and cut it off before it got too long.
But i always kept it at shoulder length.

This year i cut it,
Thinking that if i cut it, I'd be able to forget about you.
I mean, its just a memory,
Can't be that hard, right?

But i didn't feel any better you know.

I felt that i was deviating from the perfect girl you liked.
I was already far off course already,
It felt as if i was going the opposite direction from where i've come.

I try to make up for it,
By nagging my mum to choose something other then T-shirt and shorts for me when i go out with you all.
I wanted to catch your eye,
But then again,
I'm not that attractive in the first place.

I really don't love dogs.
I just tolerate them.
But i thought FiFi was cute.
Because you said so.
I really love cats more,
At least hugging and playing with them is never a problem for me,
Not even when they're wet and muddy.

Sighx...
I don't hope to see you in my next life,
Coz i don't want to fall in love with you and get hurt again.

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 7:07 AM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Went to seoul garden to eat today.
Wasn't as happy as i should be,
Because it feels a little off without the old gang.

But i guess it was okay, overall,
With liing and Wen jie being cute and all.

But my mind was on other things.

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Found this in a kewl little quote website.

Nicely summarises something.
I've always wanted to say.

"I'm so tired of you confusing me. Really I am. And its like each time I feel that I've made a little progress with moving on, you do something like hugging me and saying you love me. Please just stop paying your games with me. don't get me thinking there's a chance when all you really want is to reassure yourself that I still love you. it hurts me, because I do still love you. damn you for not letting me go. Stop holding onto my heart. I was nice enough to give it to you, can't you be nice enough to return it now that you're done using it?"

Even though i know you're not going to come round and read this, i still thought i should put this up. Maybe if i stare at it long enough, it'd convince me to give up.

MAYBE.

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 6:18 AM

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Thought of the day:

So near yet so far,
So cliche yet so true.

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So naive to think that i could stop remembering.
Too naive to think that if i stashed it at the back of my mind,
It would stay there,
Maybe disintergrate while I'm pretending it didn't exist.

Guess i didn't realise how much such things affected me ya?

Thought it was okay, thought i lived through it already.
Didn't help the bus trip back though.
My eyes threatened to water.
Sighx. So much for having a faulty tap in place of my eyes.

I'm not kidding when i say i dream about... some people.
Sometimes i remember them, but it's really fuzzy,
Unclear.

I don't remember all events in my dreams,
But i do know that most of them were sad,
Tragic,
Screams,
Moonlight,
Darkness,
Destruction.

Sometimes i remember dreaming about DA being invaded,
My people enslaved.
Other times,
I'd be out on an adventure with friends,
And i lose them one by one.

Or I'd be caught,
And nobody would be there to save me.

And memories.
Memories i had are all distorted.
People inside screaming they hate me.

Only once in a while, i get nice dreams.
Of sweetness.

But those with you in it,
It's always disturbed, those memories.
It always starts off sugar-coated,
Then it rots after a while.
And by the time it ends and i wake up,
I'd be crying, but for what, i can't really pinpoint.

Why?
I don't know.
Maybe I'm just a sadist at heart.

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 4:55 AM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

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Mood of the day:
So pissed, i'm almost numb.

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Random thought of the day:
Till now I still lose myself in your voice.
I still try to find comfort where there isn't any,
I still try to find love where it can't be found.

I still feel like crying when i hear your voice,
I still yearn to know more about what's going on around you.
I still remember the kisses and the hugs,
Yet i know they hold different value for you and me.

We're not meant to be together.
I tell myself that everyday.
But at night i dream, and in the day i feel,
And still...
I can't forget you.

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Confession of the day:
Sorry for the way i rejected your requests. I didn't mean for it to come out that way.
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Post for the day:
What can i say?

Is a small little gathering for fun so hard?
What is it about the gathering that makes it so hard to go?

Because you hate us?
Or because we aren't just high enough in your list of priorities?

I'm blunt.
So I'll tell you 2 right now.

I'm not disappointed.
It's way beyond that.
I really feel nothing for you all now.

You ruined tomorrow's gathering for me.

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Nobody can be perfect, and i get real jealous and angry when the few gatherings that i wanna have are disrupted. Especially when its one of those rare times when my mother gives me the permission to go out. I don't like getting angry and i don't like forcing people. But it's just a gathering. To see people that i've not seen for a long time. What's so hard?

She's going to restrict my free time soon, and i really wanted to get out with you all before i go head-first into my studies. And yet, simple wishes like this you refused to grant me.

Why?

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 6:26 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Now currently hooked on gaia~

So many things to see, to wear, to buy!
And SO MANY FRIENDS!

Hahax~

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Faint~ recently started to draw chibi again~

Glad to announce, my chibi drawing skills have grown again after a standstill! XD
卡娃，俊炫，小雪、小狐 and me have all been drawn!
Going onto my sweet lil girl children soon~

Hahax, now liing has a lil kid too~
And i've an upcoming boy and girl child for constance~

LOLx, DA's going be a busy place next month~

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News straight from the DA boardroom:

This is Haneki reporting live from the DA's conference room at its headquarters.

After 5 months of long searching and waiting, Yukiko, our dearest and beloved God, returned yesterday!

Kimi, a girl from the suburbs of Rivorier, noticed some abnormalties in the terrain around the state the night before and reported to the DA spokeswoman, Kina about the unauthorised rift.

Fearing invasion, DA sent its elite troops, the shadowy MSEA, led by the Child of God, Suzuki, to intercept the invasion.

A few hours into the night, an explosion occured in the deep Garnet Mines, causing the entire mine to collapse, leaving a gaping hole where the shrine and Garnet Crystal used to be. It was reported that Yukiko, is found unharmed but unconcious in the middle of the ruined mine, seemingly unhurt by the collapse.

Kina says, "We are indeed glad to have her back amongst us, but we are afraid that questions, and answers would have to come later. She is currently unconcious at this time, and although she is in no danger, we are unsure of her psychological state. Rest assured, she is alright, and she has also brought a new member to court."

A celebration is being planned at this moment of time, and details would be released when it comes closer to the yearly CANDY event.

Watch out for the latest news on DA.dreamingoftstars.com

This is reported by Haneki Bouru.

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Random thought of the day:

It's not a fun thing to be forgotten.

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 2:53 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Waaahhh~
Finally got time and energy to come online lerx...

This blog die le~
Muz revive!!!

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Random thought of the day:
Some people can really just be a bi-yatch. = .= and blazers are really comfy!

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Sighx... really, children nowadays got no respect for their elders.
I mean, they scream, yell, scold people in public without shame.

What's worse is that they do the same thing to their parents too!
Totally rude and un-cute.

What brought about this thinking was actually due to the fact that i witnessed such a thing on sunday...


Well, I went BPP at around 8+ on that day to get my plastic dividers(file was to be handed up on the next day... x.X),
And when i got everything and was waiting for the really late bus,
I saw this really cute 4-5 year old boy and his mom.(he was really, really cute.)

But then, he started to talk. Or rather, he started to bitch.
He kept saying things like 'Why the bus so long!', 'The bus driver very stupid!', in his childish high-pitched voice of his.
And he wasn't just loud.
He was very LOUD.

I mean, people in the bus stop was staring at him and his mom(including me),
And his mom noticed.
So, she told him to tone down his voice, coz it's 'shameful for people to stare at us'.

Guess what the little brat replied?
'Why should i be shameful? It's the bus driver's fault! And they are rude for staring at us! What do i have to be quiet when its not my fault?'

Frankly, the bus really din come for the next 10 mins(out of which 9 and a half was spent listening to the brat bitch),
Which is pretty normal, considering the time of the day.

And the brat said this(6mins into the waiting)
'Go, la! The bus will never come!'

The mom said,
'Let's wait a bit more.'

And the little brat said,
'You stupid! The bus will never come!'

And i was like...
Can i slap the damn brat?

Seriously.
Children these days really dun respect their elders enough.
Not to mean that we are saints, but we are definitely better then them(most of us at least).

And my sister is a mild little brat.
She's not that bad actually, but sometimes,
She really ignores all of us(anyone older then her) when we talk to her at times...

Sighx. And scolding really doesn't work, coz she overrides my demands anyway...
(I dislike hitting kids. Unless they're really really horrible.)

I hope that the adults(the ones that deserve it at least) get the respect that they are due, from us, the younger generation.
After all, most of them, have really done a lot for us, and since we are unable to do much for them, the least we could do is respect and love them right?

Not scold or stare down them. Just smile...

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Random quote of the day:
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracle, you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

-Prince of Egypt

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Next issue to my heart:

Really, i don't like the way some people do things.
Especially after i read 尤今老师's 小说选

There was this 篇章 inside, which is titled 飞翔的企鹅 and another one titled 监护人。
This book was actually a book for the competition, 《读吧，新加坡》by the singapore government.
This competition wanted us to understand the stories, feelings, thought processes and the underlying message behind each short story, and now, i have only read 2.

The first one is actually a story about a boy, who was suppressed by his super-protective mother.

His father had died of cancer when he was young, and this had led to his mom, having to take upon her shoulders the burden of 养家。 As such, his mother saw him as hope, hope for him to lead a better life in the future. She had extremely high hopes for him, and she did not dare to let him out of her control, for fear that he would go on the wrong path.

However, he felt very suppressed and had no freedom, and he coulnd't understand why his mother was so strict in what he could, and could not do. He felt hurt and really angry when his mother would not believe him no matter what, and had to humiliate him all the time in front of his classmates, and his peers. In the end, he committed suicide by jumping.

After reading the story, i felt that both the mother and the son were wrong. But i feel that the son was more to blame for his actions, while his mother was to be blamed for holding too tightly.

On one hand, the son should have realised that what his mother was doing was actually good for him, and that her intentions were good, instead of viewing it as pointless nagging. It is afterall, the way that she chose to show her care and concern to her child. He shouldn't have made the rash decision to commit suicide, despite what his mother did. He obviously never realised how people around him would be affected, but only thought about his freedom in the way of death. He should have known, and probably did, that his mother did love him, in her own way, which is obvious from the last scene, where she was depicted to have put his favourite foods on his funeral altar.

On the other hand, the mother shouldn't have been so hard on her son, neither should she have held him so tightly. She may not have known how to communicate to her son, but at least she should have trusted her son not to do things that were bad for himself. Frankly, even though her way of bringing up her son is often seen in Singapore, i feel that she should have invested enough trust in her son, and not overeact to things. She should have also listened to her son.


But in some way, i can understand her reasons for such over-protectiveness. Her son, is afterall, the only thing left to her after the death of her husband. It is only natural, that she hold on tighter to him. I once read this in a fanfiction.

"Do you know that sometimes when you feel like you're going under, you'd hold on tightly to a rock, to keep youself afloat? Aizen was Hinamori's rock. He was the one keeping her afloat. That's why she's afraid to let go, Taichou. She's afraid of drowning."

"But you didn't fall apart like Hinamori did."

"Because Gin never hid from me. I'd always known that he'd leave, someday. That's why i was his rock. I was there to hold him."

However, things don't always go the ideal way. Things go out of our control and sometimes, all we can do is ask ourselves, why?

Only a few days ago, a 11yr old committed suicide out of school stress. Did he ever think about his peers, his parents? Did he ever think about how his leaving would cause emotional hurt to those he holds dearly to heart? Was he ever aware that those same people would have been there to help, if he'd asked? I wonder, what was it that he saw, when he jumped? Did he see his dear ones crying for him? Or was he seeing wings? Wings that would take him away?

Not to say i never thought of commiting suicide before. I did. Once in a lifetime, long long ago.

I thought that if i died, i wouldn't be hearing them talk about me anymore. I wouldn't have to force myself to fit in a world that seemingly had no place for me anymore. I couldn't see my parents' love and concern for me then. It was hate, and anger. Death had seemed the most attractive option then. I would have, if not for a stupid oath that i had made, and my pride would not allow me to break it. I promised my mother, that i'd never, ever commit suicide.

My suicidal thoughts turned into mild depression, and i kept away from my classmates in general, hiding into the computer lab to gain a little bit of peace that i couldn't seem to get in real life. I lost myself in the virtual world, finding comfort where there shouldn't be any. I relied in my virtual world persona to tide me through the year, and finally, after fights and tears and pain, i got myself a place in WSSS. And the rest of the story, you all know. =)

It's really not easy to keep your sense in situations like this, coz our emotions would tend to overwhelm us.

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Random quote:
What's more important then cookies? Cookies!
-Yukiko-kami.

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Hmm, i still got's lots to say, but have to go~

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 7:30 AM

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

LOLx...

Actually my hair kinda unnerves me sometimes...
Coz when the wind blows on it, it feels like its floating... O.o

Hmmm... LOLx... Actually...

My reason for cutting my hair went something like this...

(My thoughts)
Ohhhh, those girls look so cool!
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= .= there's no way i can carry THAT off...
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O.o actually, why not?
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ARGH! JUST DO IT!


LOlx, that's exactly what happened...

Actually was quite afraid of how it would turn out derx...
So i cut it not very short, so that my hair would grow back(more or less),
By the end of two weeks...

But i guess it suits me better then my 'mushroom' hair though,
XD but was rather afraid of how my friends would receive it...

Hahax, but their comments were pretty encouraging, so i cut it shorter XD



Random thought of the Day:
Lighting is pretty.




fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 3:36 AM

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Mehx...

LOLX, i keep forgetting to bring things home... = .=;;;
This time it was my stack of reading materials o.O

Found out only after taking a bath...
And i was like OMGWTF???!!!

And i went back to get it lorx...

Ya...
But that's not the point of this post... (>.<;;;)
The point is, on the way there & back, my eyes were assaulted... ; .;

Hmmm, actually it wasn't anything much really... ._.
Just that seeing so many, urrmmm, 'pairs' walking around and lounging around my void deck makes me feel so (> o<)!!!

O.o
o.o
-.-
=.=

SO MANY!!!
Everywhere i turn, on the bus, in school, near my house... ; .;
I mean, its not that they're breaking a law or anything, but ;.;
I'm sadded...
TT.TT

O.o
I just feel that way...
Doesn't help that it happens around me too... o. O
Truth to tell...
i'm a little tinsy, winsy bit jealous... (>o<)!

Just A WEE bit. ._.

Sighx...
I WAN SOMEONE TO TREAT ME LIKE THAT TOO!!!!!
TTOTT

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 2:59 AM

Saturday, July 5, 2008

独角戏

是谁导演这场戏
在这孤单角色里
对白总是自言自语
对手都是回忆
看不出什么结局

自始至终全是你
让我投入太彻底
故事如果注定悲剧
何苦给我美丽
演出相聚和别离

没有星星的夜里
我用泪光吸引你
既然爱你不能言语
只能微笑哭泣
让我从此忘了你

没有星星的夜里
我把往事留给你
如果一切只是演戏
要你好好看戏
心碎只是我自己

Meow.

fallenINlove*with IVAN & WANG YAO @ 12:10 AM

Thursday, July 3, 2008

The Best of Friends The fox and the Hound OST

When you're the best of friends
Having so much fun together
You're not even aware, you're such a funny pair
You're the best of friends

Life's a happy game
You could clown around forever
Neither one of you sees, your natural boundaries
Life's one happy game

If only the world wouldn't get in the way
If only people would just let you play
They say you're both being fools
You're breaking all the rules
They can't understand, the magic of your wonderland

When you're the best of friends
Sharing all that you discover
When that moment has past, will that friendship last?
Who can say? There's a way!

Oh I hope... I hope it never ends
'Cause you're the best of friends

***********************

Sighx, this song is so sad-x! I went back to re-read this story when i listened to the Disney OST the other day...
(Actually, my mom bought it long ago, but i only got round to listening to it...)...

Actually, the story was never really given what is considered by me to be a happy ending...
(well, it defintely didn't end with those two living together in the same farm forever...)...
But i decided that it probably had to end that way coz its just more... logical, coz really, foxes don't live on farms, no matter how much i prefer them to...

Well, the story goes something like this...
(cut short and cut short-ed, if u want, juz go wiki and type Fox and the Hound, they have the plot bunny.)
There was an orphaned fox, who was sent by an owl to a farm owned by a kind old lady. The fox, who was named Tod, met a puppy, Copper, from next door, who had just been taken home by its ill-tempered owner. On the same farm, was another dog, Chief, who treated Copper like his own child.

Tod and Copper became friends, however, Copper's owner Slade, was unhappy, and disapproving of the friendship, and tried to prevent them from meeting, however, Tod decided to meet Copper at his own home, which led to a chase by Chief, and eventually, Slade promising to kill Tod next time.

Tod's owner made Toid stay inside the house during the hunting season, and Copper was taken out by Slade to hunt. And several months later, when Copper had returned, Tod had grown up into a handsome adult, whereas Copper had become an excellent hunting dog. Tod, upon Copper's return, meets Copper once again at the farm at night, thinking that Copper was the same puppy as before, but Copper had told him, that they were no longer friends, because they were in fact, natural enemies. A chase occurs, but Copper divereted Slade and Chief. However, Chief was able to chase Tod to the railway, but in an accident, Chief died. Copper becomes very angry, and blames Tod for the accident, and swore revenge.

Tod's owner, fearing for Tod, left Tod at a nature reserve, so that Slade and Copper would not be able to get at him. At this point, Tod is shown to be unable to fit in and survive with the wild animals there. However, the owl, and a vixen, Vixey, taught his survival skills.

Later in the story, a vengeful Slade and Copper transpass the reserve in a bid to catch and kill Tod. However, the traps that Slade had made caused them to be in danger, and a bear nearly kills Copper, who was trying to defend Slade. Tod, who had been watching at that time, against his better judgement, intervenes and manages to lure the bear away, which had caused him and the bear to fall down the waterfall.

Tod survives and meets Copper at the shore, who was confused by Tod's actions. However, Slade chose the time to appear to shoot Tod. Then~

Copper stood in front of Tod, unwilling to let Slade shoot his friend. And Slade did not shoot, as he didn't want to lose his prized dog, to kill a fox that he did not need. Finally, the two friends shared a last smile before going seperate ways.

The end...

Sighx....

REally not my idea of a happy ending, but i guess it was better than the original story it was based off.

The original story was actually 'The Fox and the Hounds' by Daniel Mannix.
It followed the general trend of fairytales in the past(true ones, with their original, unchanged endings).

Fairytales in the past, including Sleeping Beauty, Beauty and the Beast, etc, were notorious for having unhappy and bloody endings, meant for adults, to scare and warn...
Usually, it doesn't end nicely, both to the good guys and the bad guys...
Thanks to the Grimm Brothers and Disney, we now have happy endings and 'happily-ever-afters'.

Back to 'The Fox and the Hounds'.
The story basically flows in the same general direction until the end, where Tod, was shot and skinned and hung on the hunter's wall, whereas Copper, was also shot in the end, presumably because it tried to stop the hunter from killing his friend...

Sighx, the harsh-ness of reality... Well, it is indeed true... Most hunters would have just sacrificed Copper...

Sadded.

O.o this led to an intensive research on my part about most of the other fairytales i thought i knew, from disney(courtesy of wiki)... And this is the result of it...
Not all are tragic, of course, but most.

The version we know, is green, and the actual version is in red

Beauty and the Beast
x Belle is the daughter of a rich merchant
- Belle was actually the daughter of a king, and an evil fairy, who was disguised as a merchant's daughter to protect her from the fairy
x The prince was turned into a beast because he refused to let a fairy in from the rain
- The prince was actually the charge of the evil fairy, who had turned the prince into a beast when he refused to fall in love with the fairy
(org. Madame Gabrielle-Suzanne Barbot de Villeneuve
Famous variation: Jeanne-Marie Leprince de Beaumont)

Sleeping Beauty
Part 1 of the story was the same, but there is a lesser known part two to the more or less well known story.
x She awoke from a kiss from her prince.
- She was raped in her sleep and awoke because the twins she bore was nudging her.
x They wedded each other and lived happily ever after
- They were secretly wedded and was kept a secret from his ogre mom. However, when he went to war, his mother, had known of it already, and demanded to eat his 2 children and the princess, who quickly outwitted the ogre queen. However, when she found out, she prepared to kill the princess and the 2 children with a cauldron of disgusting and poisonous stuffs. Luckily, the prince saved them, but the Queen suffered a terrible death of her own makings.

Little Red Riding Hood
x A hunter appeared, killing the wolf and saving Little Red Riding Hood and her Grandma.
- They died. D.I.E.D. Eaten. Gone. DEAD.
x The Little Red Riding Hood talked to the Big Bad Wolf and ran away.
- No, she did a striptease for the wolf and THEN ran away.
x The Big Bad Wolf ate the Grandma, then Little Red Riding Hood later.
- No, he dissected the Grandma, invited Little Red to eat it, then ate her... EW.

Snow White and the Seven Dwarves
x The step-mother falls over the cliff and dies.
- Said step-mother was forced to dance in red-hot iron shoes until she died.
x The step-mother wanted Snow White's heart to be shown, so that she knew that the servant did do his job.
- The step-mother wanted the heart, and a couple of other intestines to EAT.
x The step-mother asked a servant to abandon Snow White.
- The mother had abandoned Snow White by herself. There was NO stepmother.

Rumpelstiltskin
x The baby boy was saved by his mother.
- Sadly, no. In most past versions, the baby boy was killed.
x Rumpelstiltskin was so angry, he threw a tantrum and went away.
- He was so angry, he stamped a hole into the floor, and then pulls himself up with so much force, he was torn into half.
(there's one more version, but i'll let u find that on your own xD)

Cinderella
x She was a poor girl with a really bad evil stepmother and step-sisters.
- She's actually a muderess who killed her own mother so her dad could marry the housekeeper.
x The step-sisters tried to fit into the shoe, but it didn't work.
- The step-sisters mutilated, cut off toes, etc etc to try and fit inside the glass slipper.
x ... I forgot wad happened to the step-mother...
- When the prince realised that he loved Cinderella, birds pecked out the step-mother's and the step-sisters' eyes for being wicked.

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